Never enough

DAILY PROMPT: The Guilt that Haunts Me
Share a time when you were overcome with guilt. What were the circumstances? How did you overcome your guilt.

Isn’t guilt a constant state of mind.  I never do enough — not enough work, not enough around the house, not enough writing, not enough bloggging, not enough this, too much that.    That doubt of uncertainty is probably both the bain and the gift of being human.  We have a drive to learn, do new things, and succeed.  Unfortunately this combined with an internet that can always show perfection, machines that can make anything perfectly, and a society that expects excellence at every turn can make any one person feel inadequate.

For example, during the last month I took a break from blogging to participate in NANOWRIMO — national novel writers month.  My goal was 50,000 words of the dragon cat novel.  Did I succeed–NO.  But I did manage to get a tremendous amount of work done.  And do take pride in the work.  Final statistics

  • Dragon Cat Novel — 18,000 words.  Have a very strong outline and it looks like a natural trilogy.  Need to write a couple short stories with this material with good dialog before finishing.
  • Travels in France — a travel book about my adventures with Kate in Brittany last year.  About 20,000 words.  More fun and probably will be finished before Dragon CAt.
  • Sew What?  You Want a Machine?  — 7000 words, mostly complete small essay on how to buy a sewing machine.  Since this is almost complete, I can use this to learn how to self publish as a free book.

So Overall, I did well.  And learned that getting up an hour earlier every morning is a good way to write.  In a good morning, I can write a 1000 words.  On a bad morning, nothing.  On those mornings, I wanted to come blog and felt guilty about not writing a novel.  So my new goal is to split my time–one morning writing novels and books, one morning writing a blog post. Happy blogging ahead.

Sophie wants to add a final word.  “What I love about my human writing is sitting on her keyboard.  It always gets me attention. But a heating pad next to the computer is a good second best.    A cat’s job is never done–always need to be watching those humans.  Don’t I look lovely on that table Bob made.  But that cat Charlie, it’s disgusting how he caves into the whole good cat thing.  He looks way too happy laying on his back in Bob’s arms.  No self-respecting cat should ever do that.”

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Author: robinesworld

Welcome to my life. My life as a mom is changing as the kids grow up, leave home, and build their own lives. This gives me a chance to rebuild myself as an artist, develop a spiritual path, and most fun of all, start going out on dates with my husband. Come here the stories about the small things in life that can make one very happy. Dogs running on a beach, great breakfast dates, kids and their adventures, and my own adventures in this wacky life. I'll share some of my progress in learning art while juggling a full time job as an engineer. And best of all, it's a chance for me to practice writing stories while keeping in touch with my kids. I look forward to hearing from you. Comments, thoughts, and invitations to meet for coffee are all welcomed. Enjoy the stories.

2 thoughts on “Never enough”

  1. Congratulations on your writing success. I can associate with the cat sitting on the keyboard. Our cat does the same thing or snuggles up between the computer and printer and HOlds my hands in his paws. They are so cute,

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